He got through the door and smiled at me
you OK love?, i didn’t expect you to be up still.
i tried to call you
yer sorry i saw, lets go to bed ah, you look sleepy.
did something happy tonight with you and ***?
i don’t know what you mean.
i mean what i say did anything happen?
i’m too tiered for this and your being odd, lets go to sleep.
so i did, i laid in bed and didn’t go to sleep but instead stared at the ceiling to scared to ask the question. i was full of fear – white hot fear – it wrapped around my heart and burnt me. it hurt, a lot, the fear of a million things running around my head at once. FEAR come out of every cell of me.