It’s 6.30am and I’m on the bus on the way to work.
I’m wishing I could opt out of the next 18 hours.
Dipstick is coming to get the last of his things.
We have agreed that there will be no contact for a while. I can’t deal with any of the legal stuff right now. I imagine they will get engaged soon then push for marriage in 6 months.
I will take 6 months to try to get my stuff together, then I feel I will be more ready to deal with all the legal bits.
I’ve been told that his parents are taking a loan against their home. This is to clean our debts so he can make a fresh start. His parents don’t expect me to pay any of this back – they have also cut contact with me now.
While he is collecting his bits ill be seeing caseworker and shrink.
I’m keep crying this morning. I left him a goodbye letter.
I’m struggling today.
When I finally get in I’m going straight to bed!
Not coping well today.