Therapy blew my mind yesterday, 10 minutes before the end of the session she said
‘What does domestic violence mean to you’
‘I suppose a quivering women with 2 black eyes scrubbing socks on a wash board’
‘Im going read you something and I want you to tell me what you think
“The actual violence was more emotional. It was very subtle, little put downs. He started controlling the money. I wouldn’t have any money to buy things for myself. If I spoke I was talking rubbish and wasn’t allowed to speak. He used the car to have power over me. He hated me having contact with my family. He said I was clumsy. He picked my clothes. He said know one would want me”
‘Well what do you think’
I couldn’t speak, tears fell, my mind wouldn’t stop spinning.
‘Read this book and we will chat more next time, remember this is all to much to deal with at once. One think at a time’
There to much to think about, I never considered DV before.
Homework this week
Read my DV book.
Study for a course my work have set up for me.
Do some overtime at work if possible.
Text sister in law back.
Boxing went amazingly. I’m going to keep going. It makes me feel like I have some power.