Been drinking and feel sad.

Can’t stop thinking about everything he said! I’ve been drinking. I feel totally messed up. Can’t believe he is being so nice now. Feel so lost, I miss him.

I’ve moved all my stuff to the house share now.

I didn’t ask for any of this.
I miss him.
I can’t believe he has done this to me,
I’m happy he still ‘has love’ for me.
I want to still be friends with him but I’m scared I will never move on. I so sad all of the time.

I’m just so sad, I don’t want to be sad anymore!

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Comprehending the situation.

We have spoken again about the situation, well he spoke and i stared at him.

I cant do this, i don’t want to do this. I’ve been drinking again.

I DON’T CARE ABOUT FUCKING OBJECTS

I DON’T CARE ABOUT FUCKING OBJECTS

I DON’T CARE ABOUT FUCKING OBJECTS

I DON’T CARE ABOUT FUCKING OBJECTS

I’m keep saying this in my head.

Nothing is coming out of my mouth.

I want him, i would happily live in a box if i could live in it with him.

I cant put up with this pain.

I’ve now been given a case working by my shrink.

People moan about the NHS system but i think its amazing.

In 3 months i have been given meds, shrink and caseworker.

I think in other country’s people would have to pay for this.

Caseworker has helped me come up with a list of things he can take.

I’ve been reduced to a child. I cant even work out answers to logical questions.

Where has logic gone?????

Logic tells me i’m mourning for a man that doesn’t give a fuck about me.

Why does he not care about me?

I feel like i’m gonna wake up and this will all have been a nightmare?!

I don’t understand this?! What has happened to my life, where has it gone?